" Try'n To Find The Rainbow "

I cannot give you a reason, God knows I have no legitimate
reason to be depressed, but I am ...................
For several days now I have been try'n to find the rainbow.
I'm not in a suicidal depression, it's more like an exhausted
joyless funk! Nothing gets me excited or makes me smile.
I am far from this type person and I'm very worried about
the cause of this. Some have said it may be my big trip.
Maybe, but I've been home 8 days! It never takes that long
to re-coup!

From Whence You Came


A cloud of depression dark and mouldy

Has draped its self upon my shoulders

From whence it came, I haven't a notion

it's taken as a prisoner, my emotions

go away I said; it did not hear

my smile and joy just disappeared



I try to read- the words stay still

I sleep and sleep as if I'm ill

A knot stays tight within my throat

I think at times that I might choke



No soft caress from my true love

No prayer I whisper to the one above

Not even the sound of my children's voices

Can erase the dark and replenish my joy



Flee from here my mind screams loud

Get out, get out, get out, get out

You have no business hanging around

I have no sorrow I wish to drown

I refuse to let you keep me down



I'll rise and find the perfect way

to stand against your heavy weight

I'll push and shove, I'll cry and scream

until your back......

From whence you came




Copyright May 19,2009 by Carol Murdock






I'd like to add a footnote to this post: 7:09 P.M.

After posting this ,I made myself a cup of coffee and sat down to read some of Louise Howe Bailey's book " Draw Up A Chair". There is a story titled " Envy Me My Neighbor " in which she tells of convincing him against his better judgement to go visit the beach with his family.

He takes her advice : the first night, a tornado hits the campground, the next day he nearly drowns trying to save someone drowning and then there's the sharks! I have laughed till the tears ran down! Thank you Louise Howe Bailey!!!